Saying good bye or leaving isn't my thing since the day I can remember. Even the day my late grandfather send me back home to my parents I was crying like no end. Saying good bye to the place that I fall in love just got me the same effect as I leaving my family for the 2nd time. The last time I checked it was almost 10 years ago I feel this sad. It was the day I left home for study. Now, I'm leaving my 2nd family for good cause, but I don't know why it's felt so bad to leave. Second day being away from the place I call "home sweet home" makes me waking up with jolt and disoriented because my body's clock still sticking with my working shift. Its just the sad feeling come along with me until now. I wasn't aware I could fall in love with this job, this place, this environment and the peoples of course. The first day I step in Magnum Kuala Lumpur, my purpose was to earn because I have sick father at home, I got 22k study loan to pay and I got my mother's dream to build the new house for our family. I'm not complaining that I got to do all these but I feel hopeless because I don't know where to start or what happened to me next. To think how I got to stand today alone on my own feet sort of make me said 'unbelieveable' i mean on my own term of life not comparing with others. The thought of I'm running out of time to do all these makes me desperate to earn more.
My Magnum family taught me a lot, from zero to who I am today. I wasn't Diana you know today if I didn't become part of this family. I don't even know how to set a table for customers, I don't even know how to hold a tray full with glasses until I spilled water around, thanks to Ms.Mae for letting me worked on floor section for 2 weeks. I can't deny it was awful at first, then I enjoyed it. I don't know types of spoons until they told me about it.Those experience such a big new world to me. I still remember I had the rough 1st day at Magnum..haha.. 8am till 11pm shift. I was so mad and I was wondering how the managers and the staffs could handle this tiredness. As day goes by, I got it, the tiredness is nothing when you got peoples around you that can always makes you smiles. I'm so used to live alone but being here is just such a beautiful moment because I can finally stop saying "alone". I don't deny it, I caused lots of trouble, I do mistakes etc, but I'm thankful with everyone around me, they helped me a lot. The precious thing I've learned in here is to be patient. I'm not a patient person, I used to have bad temper and when it comes to arguing its gonna be a mess, but being here taught me to be patient and I'm surprised that I could be this patient.
I'm writing this on my personal blog because this experience was one of the most beautiful experience for me so far. Maybe my point of view is different with others but that how its work in this life. Every person has their own POV and their own story. I don't easily get excited to something, but when I do its gonna be a lifetime moment. Magnum's Family was one of the moment that makes me excited every time I'm thinking about it. I have issues with trusting peoples but Magnum changed me. I used to be pessimist but slowly I'm trying to move on and being an optimist. Meeting beautiful person like them was a moment that I want to remember and treasure for the rest of my life. Despite the religion, race, color, language barrier we are able to communicate and working together without failed. I don't feel like I was a stranger among them and I don't feel any difference around them. The best thing that I can say in here is, they make me smile. Why?... Because I always wish I could smile or giggle sometimes because I wasn't one before. Magnum make me feel like I was born again for better purpose in life. This is why I told them, I'm the one that thankful for this family and experience. I hope I could always smile like I was in Magnum forever. Now, I'm not there anymore. I have to continue my journey. I still have a very long journey to go through. Yes, my heart heavy like I can't handle anymore whenever I think about leaving this family, but sometimes we need to sacrifice something that we like or love to please others. In my case, I have a big responsibility to carry on my shoulder. I didn't leave for my own pleasure. Like I always said, life is a one way road, you can't go back to pick up something you left behind but you can always grab all the things that coming toward you. At the end of the day, those moments going to be your life partner and something you can treasure as long as you still breathing. Thank you Magnum Family. Till we meet again. I wish all the best to all of you. Thank you for letting me stay for awhile. To the managers, you guys rock. Partner in crime Ms.Mae, I'll be your doraemon forever :) . Love, Diana.
P/S: That's my partner in crime :)
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